i was 16 years old and it was the final day of my practicals and i had to dissect a big frog or i would fail the test.i was numb,i started dissecting it and saw that the heart was still beating,i almost puked and felt dizzy and left the room.the invigilator said it was fine and asked me to wait outside.the frogs heart and my eyes with tears.i coulnot save.that day something inside me died.i just killed a living being and took its life away.what did i do i screamed.the only bad karma i ever did was to kill a frog.beyond my ethics,way beyond compassion!i passed the test but my ethics failed on that particular day.gave me depression.i decided dissection should be rooted out of syllabus in schools and colleges.still working on that.did it ever happen with you!did you fail?did your ethics fail?did you do anything unforgiving in your opinion?first forgive yourself!it happens.we are only humans.dont feel guilty.it happens with everyone.walk strong my friend.if any experience or incident has hurt you,you will only heal completely if you forgive yourself and others.try.heal.you are strong!
when i was a kid about ten years old,i was studying in st.anns primary school.being a christian missionary school we would say a prayer about jesus christ.everybody would close their eyes and say the our father in heaven holy be your name prayer,it happened one day i opened my eyes and read this quote written on the wall,my obsession with quotes,words and inspiration.it goes like this"for god so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son,that whosoever believeth in him shouldnot perish but have an everlasting life".i dint know the meaning back then.when everybody said the prayer and later laughed and talked.i kept reading the quite on the wall,trying to understand it.few years later when my english was way much better and my faith strong in god,i actually understood the meaning.
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